Lost and Found

There is someone I have known for a very long time, back in my high school days. We used to be very very good friends, like best friends but as the years went on, our friendship seemed to lose itself. As the last couple of years went by, we both mutually let each other go. We are polite to each other when we see each other but that is really all it comes down. This is the person I used to call and cry to in the middle of the night if needed, or when I needed to confide in someone, she was the one I went to. I could tell her things, I could not tell anyone else or if I felt bad about something, she always had a way to make you feel better. Every now and again, I look back over the years and there is no one to blame or no way to fix our friendship. It is very sad how we lost each other because I loved her like family. But things change, people change, values change, lifestyles change. Although, at the core, I feel I am still the same person but I think she has changed in so many ways and I feel she was "cleaning" her closet and our friendship reminded her of too much of the past? I think that was it. Well, that's how I feel about it anyways. She had a lot of different things going on and she herself, didn't open up to anyone or me for that matter as much as she could or wanted to. I guess now, it doesn't matter and I haven't thought much about her for a while except occasionally when we see each other (surprisingly enough, we don't bump into each other as much as I though we would since we both live in the same apartment building). But today, I was checking my friendster profile / messages and one of our mutual friends is having a birthday this month. I check out his webpage and I noticed she is back on a friendster. She had a profile a couple of years ago but deleted it after going through her "changes". It looks like she just signed herself back on friendster but what I guess really hurts is, she has added friends (including our mutual friend whom she met through me) to her list but has not sent me a friend request. I know forget about it, I'm being stupid. Yes that's just it. I need to forget about it.....