Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Lost and Found


There is someone I have known for a very long time, back in my high school days. We used to be very very good friends, like best friends but as the years went on, our friendship seemed to lose itself. As the last couple of years went by, we both mutually let each other go. We are polite to each other when we see each other but that is really all it comes down. This is the person I used to call and cry to in the middle of the night if needed, or when I needed to confide in someone, she was the one I went to. I could tell her things, I could not tell anyone else or if I felt bad about something, she always had a way to make you feel better. Every now and again, I look back over the years and there is no one to blame or no way to fix our friendship. It is very sad how we lost each other because I loved her like family. But things change, people change, values change, lifestyles change. Although, at the core, I feel I am still the same person but I think she has changed in so many ways and I feel she was "cleaning" her closet and our friendship reminded her of too much of the past? I think that was it. Well, that's how I feel about it anyways. She had a lot of different things going on and she herself, didn't open up to anyone or me for that matter as much as she could or wanted to. I guess now, it doesn't matter and I haven't thought much about her for a while except occasionally when we see each other (surprisingly enough, we don't bump into each other as much as I though we would since we both live in the same apartment building). But today, I was checking my friendster profile / messages and one of our mutual friends is having a birthday this month. I check out his webpage and I noticed she is back on a friendster. She had a profile a couple of years ago but deleted it after going through her "changes". It looks like she just signed herself back on friendster but what I guess really hurts is, she has added friends (including our mutual friend whom she met through me) to her list but has not sent me a friend request. I know forget about it, I'm being stupid. Yes that's just it. I need to forget about it.....

4 comments:

continuitygirl said...

It is tough to forget though, there are some many people I've lost touch with over the years that I wish I could just call up for a chat, but it's been too long...

Godknows said...

yes, friendship is like that, if you not stay nearby or keep in touch that you may forget about it even you didnt want to. Thanks for sharing Trish.

psychorich said...

I don't think you should try to forget about it, because you can't. Instead, keep it as a part of your memory and cherish it. And, if some parts of that memory happen to pop up, I am sure it will bring a big smile to your face.
As cruel as it may sound, there is nothing you can do about it. And of course, life moves on. All you have to know is that you've done nothing wrong on your part. So the question is did she change from what she used to be, or did you finally see through her personality?

Crystal said...

Reading your story brings back a lot of hurt that I've felt about "friends" who've abandoned me. Thank you for sharing!